FOR THOSE WHO WONDERED, I ANSWERED…

For those who wondered, I answered. ❤

What is Emmanuel in All My Moments about?

This book traces the last 10-14 years of my life. Marked by deep pain, depression, trauma and an eating disorder, yet woven through every moment is the golden thread of the Lord’s presence. Faithful and True.

Why did you write this book? I have had a passion for writing since high school. I have always loved writing. I had no idea back in high school that when I started to struggle, I would someday be sharing about it for others to read, though. I’ve shared this some places but in the midst of traveling from one treatment center to the next, I was sitting in a hotel room alone one night when I felt like the Lord told me that I would be sharing my story through writing. I didn’t know when, I didn’t know all that I would share, but I just knew it would happen. It started with a blog after the second treatment center. Many, many, many moleskine journals filled later as well as many treatment center admissions later, I felt like spiritually I was pregnant with a story to tell. I left a treatment center last November and began writing. It was published at the end of July of this year. Within 9 months, the whole book had been written out and published for the public to read! ❤

What was the hardest moment to write about in the book?

I had many pieces of the book that were very vulnerable to write about. But the hardest to share was the “Letter to Escape” on page 70! One of the things that I did while at the treatment center in Sacramento was write a “letter” to “Escape”. “Escape” became one of the things that I always went to during my time before recovery and my time during recovery. Whenever something got hard, I chose escape. Some of the things in my “escape” list were simply avoiding the hard things, not going to events, mentally going downhill and not thinking the right thoughts so far as desiring to take my life. There were other thoughts that I would go to over and over again though that I struggled with for years that I opened up about that I had never shared publicly. Those are in the “letter to escape”. I think I can put that in the category of hard things I shared in this book. I have always said, “if it helps one person feel less alone, it’s worth sharing” though and I know someone will come across that chapter and feel less alone.

Did you ever feel shame or fear sharing this story publicly?

I felt anxious the first couple of days that it was out and published.Now I simply just feel excited about it!

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YAY ❤ As always, feel free to contact me with questions through here or through social media. If you have not yet gotten the book and would like to, you can do so by grabbing a copy through Amazon. I’ll link it here! ❤

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